Time for a little twist

Twist – A little change of pace in the moronic way of life is sometimes a life saver. That is what happens Aaj Kal! ( these days). What has happened to life? Anyone? I guess we scrambled out our lives to the commonalities of urban working phenomenon. And in between all of the grocery shopping, picking up kids from school, laundry and eating out, we just lost the pickle of life – Twist/Change.

I was fortunate enough to grow up in an environment where I could see the sunlight by 6 in the morning flooding my room. This was partially because of the way our house was built ( Civil BS) and partially to my nature loving/urban phenomenon hating folks; they would sneak into our rooms in the morning when they get up and slide the curtains to the sideways, making already gigantic entrance of sunlight look even more behemoth and kill my need to sleep.

But that being said, change is almost always a good thing. And so is the twist in expectations.

I personally have always wanted to stay near LI/NJ/NYC/CT  area, for my personal reasons. In short, I just like it here. And in August month, I moved here ( read the story of moving here), it was a change. A change because of which I experienced new portions of life, a change which made me a little more grumpy ( for meeting weird people), a change which made me very loyal customer to Starbucks! ( My favorite Starbucks bar in New jersey), a change that made me go to Barnes and nobles everyday, a change that made me drive almost 200 miles every week, a change that made me cook everyday again and a change that took away all of my exercise! But twist with mint of change is good.

As I understand change is always difficult to absorb and accept.

Some people take more time to chill out and be back to normal than others and it is this very discernible ability makes people them real.This is what makes them, the real them. Think about it!

On the other hand, thoughts the most important thing in one’s conscious. I remember this famous quote

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny

Source : Thinkexist.com

There is more that I can talk and type in, but apart from this, I have a life ( with a twist) which I need to get back. I might be a king in real life, but all I am is a weapon drenched in swamp for now ( with a twist)!

For the fans from India homeland,

the teaser is  this. I like this song because it is peppy and light. Keeps you in a good mood! Works at least for me

Till my next musing! Chao!

Moving to NJ – Deam or Destiny

Random shit happens to all of us. I was laid off without any prior notice and without any fault of mine. Companies just don’t understand how they crush someone’s dreams about life in just moment.

Dreams like yours, like mine.. graduation dreams, dreams to see their proud parents sitting near the graduation rows, pay off your college loan, moving in with your special someone, buy a very cherished and long awaited electronic device or may be just nothing. Just a happy moment in short!

Well honestly, after 6 months of soul and job searching, I figured I had to give consultants a try.

Graduating from one of best schools in the North America, I had a rough time doing this. I adopted a certain lifestyle that I think is the best anyone should be doing. I set aggressive targets for me in terms – rigorous gym, tenacious swimming regime, strenuous book reading, and tough healthy eating, and a strict walking routine.

My walking partner, a female friend “H” decided to send my resume to a couple of friends and float it and see what happens. So I gave my resume to her boyfriend “N” and decided to see what happens.

Two days after in the morning, I got a call from this guy “J” for a phone interview. I got it  So the next thing I know, I have to physically be here in NJ. Ground zero!! I decided to come to the same person “N” for this temporary accommodation and before I know I was packing up my stuff for a 5 day visit to NJ.

Some say dreams are your reflection. Some say dreams are mere revelations; some say some sort of calling. I will buy that! Dreams are generally your calling, and you should listen to it. I did. I do. I was watching this movie called Latter days, and I heard this quotation

“Like the game we played when we were kids, joining the dots. Life is full of those dots and you will see that may be they don’t make sense right now, but they will make sense later on, just keep on joining them. ”

That is what dreams were to me. – Dots connecting my life to a meaning, so that I can fulfill my dream to give meaning to the entire world.

Till my next rambling! Chao!

Greatest fears

The whirlwind inside me has been increasing the pressure lately and all the stable and concrete things inside of me seem to revolve around with equatorial speed, but one thing that has kept me sane and has kept me “intact” for so to speak is a belief. Yes, a belief.

A belief that doesn’t let me loose my temper, a belief that keeps me sane for most of my day in 24 hours/day, a belief with which when I walk, I can hold my head high, a belief that makes me believe that I will smile cheerfully again even though I don’t remember when was the last time I did laughed my stomach out, and a believe that I will see the morning again.

I consider of myself & everyone around myself as a person of great integrity and character values. For myself, I hold myself to the highest levels of expectations every minute of everyday of every month of every year. I have a reading target, an exercise target, a networking target and to much a surprise to many people – a spiritual target as well.

Ideally, I would hold myself to the highest standards and then fret about not completing them if I end up not meeting them. Over the years I remained ferment and versatile, yet restless & hopeful.

I wanted to become more, I want to learn more, do more, give more, contribute more, read more, explore more. But all I can see myself is to remain reduced to nothing but a mere mortal. I would love to define what a mere mortal stands for in my terms, but I rather not. There is not one day I feel, I should be doing more than what I have been doing, there is no one moment, I think I should be writing more than I have been doing lately, not one second passes feeling that I can be the greatest achiever of all, but all I have is some lame schedule around me.

It is quite clear that I am frustrated and deeply moved by this present state of my mind.

Randy Pausch Last Lecture: Achieving Your Childhood Dreams

Let’s gather some hope from this video clip. I agree this is long for youtube video’s but it is really worth it.

You don’t want to miss this.